"In the dark of our longest nights, we fall apart
Waiting for our end before it begins, we fall apart"
(converge)

ihateinsomnia.

edit:
magnolia. did you ever watch that movie? i remember watching it with rob during one of those endless melbourne nights and this quote came up:

'jimmy gator: the book says, "we might be through with the past,
but the past ain't through with us."'

i wrote it down in some notebook (all my diaries are loaded with quotes, i have a box with quotes at home, i have quotes pinned to my walls, i have quotes marked in books, i have quotes written on the tiniest pieces of paper, i save quotes in my cellphone if i dont happen to have a piece of paper and a pen, i have quotes in exams, i have quotes in all my blogs, i have them everywhere. ilovequotes.) back then and rob was just smiling, because he knew im a sucker for quotes like this one.
it just fits into all those thoughts of past, present and future ive had "lately" and whether to embrace it all alike, thinking that everything has its reason, or to role with the concept of regretting and slowly forgetting everything that happened. im not too sure yet.
sometimes when i wake up the future seems bright. i think i was finally able to make peace with everything that happened from 12/06 till pretty much 09/08. but im not. and somehow there is something that keeps telling me that i never completely will be. but hey, maybe regretting and forgetting is the wrong combination. maybe embracing and remembering are better. or embracing and forgetting. or regretting and embracing. (wait. that wont work) but you get the idea.
i wonder when things became so fragile. when dreams became so fragile. when lives became so fragile. when thoughts became so fragile. when the future became so fragile. when we became so fragile...
so fragile that a thought can pretty much destroy your day. sometimes days, weeks, mnths, yrs, lifetimes. happened to the best, so why not us?
i know things will work out someday (and this is as optimistic as i will ever get), i just dont know when and what to do in the meantime.
but thats another chapter, right?

ishouldgetsomesleep.